||[Feb. 27th, 2007|07:12 pm]
Academics On or Near the Tenure Track
I am so deeply unprepared for classes tomorrow. |
I'm not sure I've ever been less prepared. I do not have a class prepared on the Viking conversion to Christianity, the formation of the Kingdom of Norway, nor the Danish empire (8:30 AM).
I do not have a class prepared on Nestorian Christianity and other heretics on the Silk Road (9:40 A.M.).
I do not have a class prepared on 1453, but I can do that one in my sleep, and it's not until 2:20 so I've plenty of time.
I am unprepared because I have a 6-week old baby (with Down's Syndrome, but he's fantastically healthy so it's really just the usual parenting madness of adapting to life with baby). I am unprepared because I have been in various places the last two Sunday-Mondays with on-campus interviews, trying to get to a place where I might be able to chase tenure with a little better idea of the goal (i.e. having a tenure-track job). I am deeply ambivalent about one of the jobs, though I'd take it, and excited about the other one, so I am feeling pessimistic about being offered it. Both are teaching colleges and I'm really not sure why I am not competative at research universities (other than having just finished in September, so less publications). I wonder if I am not selling my dissertation highly enough as groundbreaking, pathfinding, and important. It actually is pretty new stuff that I discovered, maybe I need to sell it harder in my letter. I suppose that next year I'll have a second article and be close to a book contract, maybe, so that'll make a huge difference. I am very distressed about having to leave my current institution - I'm visiting, I have a second year, I believe the person I am replacing will not return, they want me, but I have to take a tenure-track position if offered one.
I shall rise at 5:00 tomorrow and prepare for class. Gonna go eat some lamb.